1. |
decade
03:10
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ten years now, you said we'd last
ten years now, thrown away so fast
worse and worse, i know its true
a friend you were, as far as i knew
less and less, i know i meant
shouldn't even give you the chance to repent
joy is my foe, or so you say
but you wont give me the time of day
ten years then, that was the past
just how you can move on so fast
messages of care and all the normal things
they were all just lies, now they only sting
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2. |
stuck
03:22
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look, in my mind, and i know what i will find
now get out of my head so i can tell you ill be fine
stuck in my brain and i haven't a clue
about what the fuck i can even say to you
days and my nights are nothing but a plague
cause from the day i met you i went another way
biding time trying to make you see all that i am
now the me that i can see i cant say im a fan
tomorrow was today or was it yesterday
I'm not sure cause my thoughts and consiousness've gone away
always occupy every corner of my mind
tomorrow will never come when i can't feel time
i'm stuck
i'm stuck
i'm stuck
i'm stuck
arms length you keep me but I know that's always true
I'm not really sure who knows the real you
sometimes my words will fall upon deaf ears
and every time they do you exacerbate all my fears
maybe I don't get you, I don't know who could
I tell you to talk to me, but i don't think you would
living in a box, my reach only goes so far
can't extend more, my day to day is marred
I swear you truly hate me, but there's no way that it's true
but time and time again the thoughts stick in my head like glue
little hints and clues, can't be coincidences
I feel like I'm going crazy, many such instances
i'm stuck
i'm stuck
i'm stuck
i'm stuck
i'm stuck
i'm stuck
i'm stuck
i'm stuck
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3. |
rumination
03:35
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sea of my emotions it never runs dry
never feel okay till I'm blazed fuckin high
thoughts of suicide rage throughout my head
mind repeats until I wish I was dead
envy coming forth cause you know it's gotta show
blood on my wrists, hope it's never gonna slow
rumination
rumination
rumination
rumination
Find a way out but I keep coming back
Ways that worked before, I try to keep track
Grabbing sharp objects on all my days
thought I'm done with that, but there's no way
give a big hello to all that walk by
the smile on my face is all a big lie
rumination
rumination
rumination
rumination
wake up in my spiral, you all know how it goes
will it ever stop, I don't really know
I can sleep my pain away, or so i thought
every time it shows, it's one I've never fought
what will happen next, its really just a blend
and as time goes on, maybe it will end
rumination x4
you never understand cause all i get is silence
and every other day i commit self violence
what is empathy, im sure you may ask
you are not the first, and probably not the last
have to go to others with all my self hate
you always say you're sorry, but i bet its all fake
again you're not the first, and i hope it doesnt last
cause my life's in shambles, and it could go fast
really wanna show you what this is all like
but I don't know if you could put up a fight
build up your defenses for years to come
youll never know what's hit you until it's done
now you can see my day to day life
I can only hope that you survive this plight
rumination
rumination
rumination
rumination
rumination
rumination
rumination
rumination
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4. |
overhead
02:10
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looming overhead looming overhead
looming overhead looming overhead
i know its coming but i don't know when
i know its coming and ill find out then
i know its coming but i don't know when
i know its coming and ill find out then
i know its coming and i know it's true
i know its coming but can i count on you
i know its coming and i know it's true
i know its coming but can i count on you
looming overhead looming overhead
looming overhead looming overhead
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5. |
impatient
01:39
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here we go again here we go again
slipping up again i got my arm dripping
here i go again here i go again
oh, my life is running away from me
here we go again here we go again
brain won't stop when im all alone
here i go again there you go again
oh, my hope is hiding away from me
you don't know what you do to me
you won't care, you won't want to see
time and time again time and time again
gotta stay alive just one more day
'fore i see it end 'fore i see it end
oh, just once show who i am to me
i dont wanna die i dont wanna die
but my brain keeps saying i want to die
gotta stay alive gotta stay alive
oh, please rush before there is no me
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6. |
suffer
03:02
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i ain't got no light
and i ain't got no hope
my future is so bleak
my life is such a joke
you said i got a bad hand
it sure as well could be
but i dont know of anyone
who'd like to be me
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7. |
when i sleep
02:58
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first they throw me 'gainst the wall
then they laugh as i fall
every hour, every day
i can't take my pain away
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8. |
when i wake
02:49
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9. |
just want to be normal
02:22
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